you know it's getting bad again

when the scale goes down 

and the belt doesn't fit you anymore. 

it's getting bad again because

everything tastes like ashes

you know it's bad cause you're happy

happy that the scale goes down

happy that he doesn't love you

that he never did

that he played and lied and hurt 

that he never liked you cause you were skinny

or sad or sick or crying

happy that he can't use and abuse you anymore.